The big D and I don't mean Dallas!

So Here I am sitting at my computer staring at my fish tank thinking about this new year. Many questions are going through my head right now. Will my wife and I get an annulment or a Divorce? What will people think? How will this effect my ministry/career? What will I do for the rest of my life as a career? Many, many questions go through my head as I lay in bed each night, and those are a few.

Now to tell you about my most recent road trip.

I read Crazy Love, then Forgotten God.
Both of those books spoke to me in an amazing way, I was confused by both of them as well. I am just unsure what the future holds for me. On one hand I wish this nightmare I am going through would leave me, yet on another I am grateful for it because It means that God can re-mold me through it, and draw me closer to Him if I let Him.

So my prayer is this:

Please God break me and mold me so that I too can be used again by you. I pray that your will be done and that I ask what can I do for you, rather than what you will be doing for me. Please father, make me more like you!

I know it's not much, but it's a start, will be posting more later.